TERRORIST, TERRORIST, TERRORIST

any clear cut definition for terrorist? who is a terrorist, ok lets start like this, who was the first recorded terrorist?kain in biblical story who killed his brother. so since he killed his brother we could call him as terrorist. next situation. an army soldier who suppose to protect us, entering into your house and engaged in cruelsome rape of your daughter and your wife, so to protect yu and your family you take a knife, since you killed someone,youare also a terrorist. isn't it funny. this is how we are branding people.

in this case all the world leaders are terrorist becuase one way or anther your gvernment faciliated the killing by arms and amunitions. every bite of the first orld food there exist the blood stain of third world civil wars. from wher those groups are getting well sofisticated advanced weapons? leave obama administration, so far earlier governments played in such a way that america's headachae is our headachae. waging war inthe gulf has a hidden motives and how can we expect that they welcome us. it's like you are entering into neighbours house and commanding his wife, any man will react to it. so the first world must stop its hipocracy and genuienly it must work to stop violence in the third world. instead of blaming them as terrorist.recently i read an article on what made the americans to wipe the native american poulation-the reason given by the author was security for their family members and for their accumulated land.

a country had crippled for three decades in civil war and it lost more than 10 million people in the process. since you shot your own foot, the super power started to ban every organisations as terrorist. that too the island organisation had formed a defacto government as mao in china once formed defacto government. how long an oranisation sustain its guerilla war tactics. but the org managed for more than 25 years thinking that one day the dawn will be there. again we showed our hipocracy by just neglecting them. some might say the head was adament, like he was not ready to comedown. let me ask a question, how about our case(kashimir ke darthi rani haye..... NCC song) are we not cultivating this attitude in every eneration to follow? for us one law and for another seperate law. how kashmir became a prestige issue similarly for that org also "seperate state" became an prestige issue. in international relations state as an actor and non-state as an another actor. naturally here state will align with another state similarly if we dont support the geneune cause ofthe people then the state itself pushing that people organisation as a terrorist organisation.

so it is very clear that the states made the people organisation as a terrorist organisation. so can we call this as state sponsored terrorism? somehow the things got complicated and the organisation got into the trap. it is the first world and the third world geneune leaders responsibility to give a life line them. there are 192 registered countries in UNO, who is going to affect if 193rd country register.

CONSEQUENCES

how this 193rd country plan had been put down by our diplomats. our diplomats are always good(particularly our neighbours) in staying close with centre at the cost of US. whether we benifited out of our nationalism or not ,our neighbours benifited a lot. they always projected us bitter people inorder to stay close with centre power. so they coined a " fake theory " as if the island formed a seperate then that might damage our unity. the last state of the country too will demand seperate state. this is the funniest stuff that i ever read. today i say we are highly happy and content with the mainland and no one is willing for another 1961(demanded seperate state).gone are those days, we are happy and content here & our brother&isters dont want to suffer because of this fake theory.

so it is high time for our leaders to consider andview this issue without any partiality. because develpment is accelerated by peace. peace in the state, peace in the country ,peace in the neighbourhood , peace in the region and peace in the world..

our brothers and sisters fought and died with the dream of small land. as the majority in the island insult us as house keepers of europeans(french) it is you all genuine respnsibility to make the martarys dreams to come true.

i request the king to forget the bitter past and work for the genuine cause of the people. and ofcourse the whole world is looking obama as a messiah of peace. so we are also looking you with the same attitude.

NO MORE HIPPOCRACY , DONT NEGLECT THEM WITH VIOLENCE AS REASON. it was an option forced by the state.

BLACK OR WHITE

(this is the black spirit(kulla karuppu) that i spoke about,beleive me i was bit nervous when i clicked, you can find the papper tied over his weapon, this terracotta statue alone not cemented and it is the oldest one)

the concept of black or white is intersting , it depends on the region where it gets conceptualised. for instance our gods are black starting from shiva to black spirit (actually it must start from otherway aruund.) but the foreiners calls eveil as black and black magic and they gave a black colur for evils where as we gave white colour for evils(mogini, aavi etc). it is human tendency to alieanate by colour and shape which actually not belongs to that groups( examples : dasuys, dasas, dravidias) certain group of people were seen odd from the dominant group and those odd groups appearances were used for peculair issues. it's like we laugh at monkeys and monkeys laugh at us.

moreover the climate plays a major role in determining the colour. whether we are naturefreindly or not, nature always remain as our friend. how?

if you are in the deep southern part of india you cant sleep after seven ,the scrotching sun starts in that case our skin develops a melanian pigment which adds dark complexion.it is also responsible for stamina. from my childhood onwards i had a doubt how come people like our complexion getting medals for america ,you know when i got answer? in loyola college that too from tamizh ayya (tamil teacher) then only i understod there is big breeding business exist.

it is no that other race has less stamina , it is safe to say black skin has got more stamina gifted by nature. following the same understanding we tamil village pepoles are hero worshippers, our gods are brave and war veterans (veeran, agni veeran, ayyanar, karupu etc). some one who gaurded our villages might died in war or might completed his life cycle .in order to comemorate them we set a stone or a statue like him and the people believe their spirit will continue to gaurd us. thats how black spirit is very famous in tamil village.

the mystery part as follows. let me explain what i had seen. i was too standing on the crowd. one persons wife started to behave very badly (troublesome) and she became uncontrolable so the man went to the kulla karuppu kovil to ask about it. the person who stood over the nails footwear closed his eyes and started to narrate that on the northside of wall there is a crack and inside it there is an amulet(a small sheet), the man further said you remove it and burnt it. thinks will be alright. then the victim asked how do i know who had done it?. then the person over the nail sandals explained tomorrow there will be a fire accident in his home from that you will come to know , for everyone of our surprise it happened. if the person further want to intensify the punishment then he writes his appeal and ties in the hands of kulla karuppu. once if the punishment was given then we have to thank him with garlands, ciroot,liquor and lamps. if the mistake is on our side then the ordered punishment will return to the person itself. it's like computer progamming "punish the culprit" no matter who the culprit,even the culprit is on the same side it punishes(there are incidents of even fatal). did we have any white spirits like this? :)

this is not explained to get scare but real tamil village remain unexplored. being a student of history i have some idea of real sources that lacks to construct history.

stop modernizing sabarimalai

lord ayyapan is alive ,ayyapan devotees are alive only problem is corporates and governments.

my first trip to sabarimalai was in 1989 walked in 48 miles continuosly for three years then during tenth public exam holidays (1999) and twice during 12th std and now 2010. so i observed sabarimalai for three decades and its progress. more than bhakthi and revenue sabarimalai is ecolgically sensitive spot and it is true the ayyapan is awesome and lovely. swami vivekananda told "the advancement of science and technology is a blow to religion". it is not a blow to religion but blow to religious people. coz as always we confuse with faith, money and fast track lifestyle. "we all have strength but god alone has power"(from iranian movie). people took sabarimalai lightly as like travelling to other pilrimage spots.

IN 1980'S & 1990"S

how they took sabarimalai fasting?

men lived only in temples ,they hardly spoke to their wivies( including my father)

they just put off all their senses

teachers wont beat in the class if you dnt do home work

they dont attend any family ceremonies

along with the men their wives too strictly follow the woes

i had seen even polices walking in bare foot in duty

everyday all the devoties assemble in temple and they practice certain ways to keep thier spirit up, like singing songs praising ayyapan and getting blessings one from each one. kids are affectionately treated as manikandan (kid ayyapan)

the whole method is coined in such a way that they stay away from the society for a month and they rejuvenate thier body and mind

finally when we start a journey that was highly exiting irrespective of age and caste people fall under our foot when we hold our irumudi(the two packs, one with ghee cocunut)

and when the van starts the women used to cry and they dont say see u later. we wish each other sami saranam

IN 2000

i found huband and wives traveling together some to the extend of traveling in bikes

ayyapan became secondary concern and they paid more attention to their business

there was dilution in everything,usually women encourage to get concession from gurusamy (experienced head person of the team) according to family sentiments women are right but not from spiritual point of view.

heared frequent incidents of accidents on the road sides

fasting became not a big issue, there were more hotels in hills as compare to earlier

IN 2010

many factors gave a blow to the morality of ayyapan devotees

first and foremost nithyanandha factor ,i myself seen many seen me with suspicious eyes, women delebrately adjust their saree and blouse in front of me ,this clearly shows the earlier devotion and fear had gone.

lot of jubbies are seen

and lot of PET litters!!!

cell phone, MNC's bottle drinks,a long que of eatable shops in the hills really irritated me in the recent journey. there was a drastic develpment in the hill path(-ve) since the journey made easy the crowd incread and naturally god move away from that place because anything that gets institutionalised corruption prevails.

PERSONALLY

i still remember my father told to my uncle "i had seen him(me) with such a joy only in these seven days" and added he is not showing this interest in studies.

when i went during 10th std there were jeeps from kumuli ,erimeli to pampa. that journey was ok and the hill too not polluted much. my recent journey is much disturbing the first irritation was that gold plate (liqur mafias are becoming business magnets) there is a concrete leveled path leads to temple (i never expected this) this cretated a stinky urinal smell everywhere. earlier while we walk we attend natures call either near to a big tree or to a bush but now the cncrete paths and iron side pipes allowing the devotees to piss on the side of the road. i was worried that i was greatly missing what i had in my childhood.

whatever it is when we climb the holy 18 steps and see the face of cute ayyapan wwoww all our hardships vanish just like that. that will tempt us to see him again and again.

in the return journey i dont want to miss those childhood adventures so i left my father to walk on the concrete path and started to walk in the donkey pass (the route which donkey take to climb the mountain) awesome experience i had seen those big big trees and plants and felt happy.

traditionally sabarimalai is a SACRED GROOVE concept. our ancestors followed this idea of sacred groove. in order to protect the forest and the species both flora and fauna they declare certains certain hills and forest as sacred groove. they name those area as under the influence of certain spirits and we are not supposed to disturb that.

some may ask then god is not for everyone?

god is for everyone but not everyone should pollute his residing place. this can be understood by nature selection. nature always choose group of people to protect its human race and tradition. we have to be natural friendly and strong to be the part of natural selection otherwise nature itself will eliminate us.

TWO THINGS

In the year 1998 i went to tirupathi after that now only went.the mountain completely energized me with its breeze. we had a plan of going to thirupathi for about a month but somehow it got delayed and last week my parents called me to thirupathi i denieded. this friday my father again called and told they were leaving to thirupathi. i suddenly showed my interest in joining with them. coz i felt bit depressed, so i thought of travelling somewhere.through out the journey two things that dominated in my mind 1)my career and 2) mylife partner. i am worried about the two. in the morning while my father went for tonsure i was gazing at the window and in my mind " what iam going to do?" this thought was running and it was drizzling out. suddenly i saw a crow came and sat over the inclined pipe which as wet. this crow was just hoping inch by inch and it gradually moved up and it reached to the next pipe.i was keen to know what it was doing after? there i found three crows one at top another two including this. the crow would have flew directly to that palce instead it moved throught out the pipe gradually!!!

after lord darshan i sat near the yoga narasimhar temple and i was worried and confused about my life partner. i sat down with bowed head and after sometime i rose my head and opened my eyes i found a guy moved with this wording T-shirt " NO PROBLEM JUST DO IT". got some sort of brightness in mind. any way alamelu mangai darshan was highly mesmerizing felt further energized.

Japa Yagna

i never attend any spiritual camps and meditation camps coz i always feel my guru words are more sufficient for me and his words are still remain fresh in my mind. i even ask some of my friendswho attend those camps while they give some details i never found anything new thats the power of guru words. last week i went to chennai for my sister's academic purpose there in the math/mission i found a notice about japa yana. i thought of attenting it coz it was mentined as only for those who got initiation in the math. so i registered and went.

this was the routine 6:30am to 8:00 am chanting japa then 8:00 to 8:30 am break fast ,from 8:30 to 10 am again japam ,10:00 to10:30 bajan (singing the glory of god ), 10:30 to 11:00 maharaj speech on the importance of JAPA. again from 11:00 to 1:00 pm japam.

japam is repeating the name of the god(the mantra which our guru gives us ) ok,

what is the use of japam? why mission took such a effort to insist on japam? bhagavan ramakrishnar told " japam is like clapping the hands under the tree by hearing the sound all the birds flyaway from the tree. similarly repetead practice of japam will clear our sins.it is there in all the religions christianity has rosary muslim has japam beads and of course ohm mane badme hum :).

10:30 to 11:00 maharaj speech japam

you never seen someone for many years and suddenly if you hear his voice or his name you will remember his face and characters. who is doing this? the brain particularly the neuron receptors. by hearing the name it traces the figure and characteristics of the person.this happens in the un consious level similarly japam will bring the divine force to us by constantly repeating the gods name. he beautifully came to next step by saying this is possible with the person whom you never spoke. for instance i am(maharaj) speaking to you all and you people never give reply but still my mind neurons receiving signals from you all. then he told lot of stages to ultimate level and first stage is japam second meditation and third bhavana (feeling it by heart).japam will mould our personality to great then he quoted from upanishad and thirukkural. finally he prayed for us and he silently left the room.

personally and honestly i felt nothing is new but i loved and enjoyed the way maharaj illustrated with his personal experiences. he too acknowleded as i am not going to say anything new but only i am going to remind you all" .awesomest word. coz they know ,when we sincerely practise japa and meditation all the above stuffs we will come to know by experiencing it.

then, i found many people using japa mala (rosary) i dont have one. i remember my guru told after crossing 5 years of initiation we can use rosary. though i crossed i still dont have one. when i felt about that suddenly i remembered gurukulam maharaj words.he always comment ramakrishnar as poor farmer. just i saw gurudev photo and felt very happy.each and every moment in the prayer hall i remembered my guru swami atmasthananda maharaj. coz he gave me life. after reaching his feet only i aspired to be a human(my brother knows me well).

over all it was a nice experience with insights.

MY GURU IS MY MEDICINE- AGAVAL

over all it was a nice experience

THEE MIDITHAL - WALKING OVER THE FIRE

this friday (3-9-10) morning i had a plan of going to telephone exchange regarding internet connection, but i slept till 10:30 am. so i thought of sending my father, he too bit delayed it. later on i myself went and as usual they gave explanation & me too came with that explanation. after coming home just indirectly i scolded my father, there started the verbal fight which develped into verbal abuse. as usual i gave some explanation to my mom and i went to bed. around 12:00pm my father woke me and told about his village agni festival. since it is about god i accepted. me my father and my mom went to village agni festival.
wow! what a temple and festival it was awesome!. the highlight is AGNI.first time i had seen the agni. this festival is sort of tribal form of worship.
agni is the festival where the people walk over the red hot burning charcoals.the distance will be 20to 30 ft (might be less) and following the fire pit there was stagnant water.100's of people walked over the fire(agni).i was amazed by just few peoples. the first person who entered into the fire was with pot covered with cocunut and mango leaves.this person was walking over the fire as if he was walking on the road. that was amazing ! few young girls they too were walking!
the men and the women in the middle age were jumping and hoping to reach the water pit.three group of people i found really awesome 1. young unmarried girls. 2. the father's who had their kids over their shoulder and 3.old peoples. these three peoples were just walking over the fire without any hast. when i asked my mom about it,she told those three were sincere in that 18 days fasting/penance. actually those 18 days are to prepare their body and mind to cross the fire pit. there were incidents of minor accidents (mostly middle age peoples) those people failed to focus themselves. brain takes 3 seconds to react to the hot objects but those people took an average of 10 to 15 sec. ????? on the whole day i was thinking about this. the deity is pachai amman ( green mother) and male deity is veeran (a hero). the priest were singing songs with very different strokes with one silambu(made of brass which gives jal jal sound) in their hands. after so many years i literally enjoyed the real festival . in the night i was discussing about the village with my father.

THANK YOU

After completing my masters, i got opportunities in JNU, IDSK and PU. In the month of July i came to our campus and just got mesmerized by our beauty of our campus. I got three signs that i am going to be here. 1) The watch man treated me fairly and he asked me to go to hostel no:1, 2) In the hostel no:1 i got room no:58 ( with the shield attached on the door) i checked the whole wing only my room got that then the open aquarium in the main building. Finally when i saw Prof. Narayanan i confirmed it:) becuase when i went to JNU everywhere torns and very much like desert forest. my intution was pushing me out of the campus.
Sat for MET,question was tough with statistics and little economics i managed by attenting psychology and current affairs questions. Another one miracle that i found was my interview just all the professors are lively and laughing like anything, believe me while came out from the room i thought " is it me?"then with my grand father support i joined in IITB. Though the study,stay and other things was challenging me i managed to stay here becuase some power in our campus protected me (thought of running away and commiting suicide). Thanks to the angels here. They gave me courrage whenever i was asking. All my old philosophies and thoughts about life got shattered here. Its like operation without anesticia.
I found my ANGEL here she will be my future wife, got base for my studies further. Actually sort of enlightenment (in siddhar tradition enlihtenment is not a end point ,its on the way perk) which i received here about life which made me to accept life as it is. My french connection continued here. In the first list couldn't make out then later i received a mail saying that they give preference to second years (i was in waiting list 11) so i could able to attend french class for one year. As Einstein said we can see life in two ways one with everything as miracle and another one with nothing as mirracle. so far i could see from the first point of view.
The IITB alumini association gave me loan for laptop. At first i though this is unnescessary expenditure. later i came to know ,now laptop is as essential as pen and notebook. some where i read "luxurious commodities are becoming essential commodities". Thanks to alumni association. Here i find people know to treat well each other in the working culture. That because of the intelligence level that exist here. we must ameliorate it further. Along with treating well we should learn to help each other. like help your own friends in learning. by teaching we will learn fastly then reading.
I never bother about good and bad people when it comes to prayer. Everyday in my prayer i pray for each and everyone in our campus. Its like for my good and for others welbeing too.
i dont know how to thank our director and other administrators here for the step taken to make IITB as a world class institute. amazing step ,our IITB must become oxford of the east (universities are doing only politics). i thank the angels here. please give oppurtuinites for first genertaion people ,let them see how another world exist. definitely this will not bring down our standard. this will only increase our learning phase. like loyola college does. these first generation students mostly will not be rowdies and easy goers. where as they will absorb our working culture and definitely it will not be a waste because i benifited from our institute a lot. I pray that arutperumjothi andavar will give all support to our director to make our institute as world class institute.