TWO THINGS

In the year 1998 i went to tirupathi after that now only went.the mountain completely energized me with its breeze. we had a plan of going to thirupathi for about a month but somehow it got delayed and last week my parents called me to thirupathi i denieded. this friday my father again called and told they were leaving to thirupathi. i suddenly showed my interest in joining with them. coz i felt bit depressed, so i thought of travelling somewhere.through out the journey two things that dominated in my mind 1)my career and 2) mylife partner. i am worried about the two. in the morning while my father went for tonsure i was gazing at the window and in my mind " what iam going to do?" this thought was running and it was drizzling out. suddenly i saw a crow came and sat over the inclined pipe which as wet. this crow was just hoping inch by inch and it gradually moved up and it reached to the next pipe.i was keen to know what it was doing after? there i found three crows one at top another two including this. the crow would have flew directly to that palce instead it moved throught out the pipe gradually!!!

after lord darshan i sat near the yoga narasimhar temple and i was worried and confused about my life partner. i sat down with bowed head and after sometime i rose my head and opened my eyes i found a guy moved with this wording T-shirt " NO PROBLEM JUST DO IT". got some sort of brightness in mind. any way alamelu mangai darshan was highly mesmerizing felt further energized.

Japa Yagna

i never attend any spiritual camps and meditation camps coz i always feel my guru words are more sufficient for me and his words are still remain fresh in my mind. i even ask some of my friendswho attend those camps while they give some details i never found anything new thats the power of guru words. last week i went to chennai for my sister's academic purpose there in the math/mission i found a notice about japa yana. i thought of attenting it coz it was mentined as only for those who got initiation in the math. so i registered and went.

this was the routine 6:30am to 8:00 am chanting japa then 8:00 to 8:30 am break fast ,from 8:30 to 10 am again japam ,10:00 to10:30 bajan (singing the glory of god ), 10:30 to 11:00 maharaj speech on the importance of JAPA. again from 11:00 to 1:00 pm japam.

japam is repeating the name of the god(the mantra which our guru gives us ) ok,

what is the use of japam? why mission took such a effort to insist on japam? bhagavan ramakrishnar told " japam is like clapping the hands under the tree by hearing the sound all the birds flyaway from the tree. similarly repetead practice of japam will clear our sins.it is there in all the religions christianity has rosary muslim has japam beads and of course ohm mane badme hum :).

10:30 to 11:00 maharaj speech japam

you never seen someone for many years and suddenly if you hear his voice or his name you will remember his face and characters. who is doing this? the brain particularly the neuron receptors. by hearing the name it traces the figure and characteristics of the person.this happens in the un consious level similarly japam will bring the divine force to us by constantly repeating the gods name. he beautifully came to next step by saying this is possible with the person whom you never spoke. for instance i am(maharaj) speaking to you all and you people never give reply but still my mind neurons receiving signals from you all. then he told lot of stages to ultimate level and first stage is japam second meditation and third bhavana (feeling it by heart).japam will mould our personality to great then he quoted from upanishad and thirukkural. finally he prayed for us and he silently left the room.

personally and honestly i felt nothing is new but i loved and enjoyed the way maharaj illustrated with his personal experiences. he too acknowleded as i am not going to say anything new but only i am going to remind you all" .awesomest word. coz they know ,when we sincerely practise japa and meditation all the above stuffs we will come to know by experiencing it.

then, i found many people using japa mala (rosary) i dont have one. i remember my guru told after crossing 5 years of initiation we can use rosary. though i crossed i still dont have one. when i felt about that suddenly i remembered gurukulam maharaj words.he always comment ramakrishnar as poor farmer. just i saw gurudev photo and felt very happy.each and every moment in the prayer hall i remembered my guru swami atmasthananda maharaj. coz he gave me life. after reaching his feet only i aspired to be a human(my brother knows me well).

over all it was a nice experience with insights.

MY GURU IS MY MEDICINE- AGAVAL

over all it was a nice experience

THEE MIDITHAL - WALKING OVER THE FIRE

this friday (3-9-10) morning i had a plan of going to telephone exchange regarding internet connection, but i slept till 10:30 am. so i thought of sending my father, he too bit delayed it. later on i myself went and as usual they gave explanation & me too came with that explanation. after coming home just indirectly i scolded my father, there started the verbal fight which develped into verbal abuse. as usual i gave some explanation to my mom and i went to bed. around 12:00pm my father woke me and told about his village agni festival. since it is about god i accepted. me my father and my mom went to village agni festival.
wow! what a temple and festival it was awesome!. the highlight is AGNI.first time i had seen the agni. this festival is sort of tribal form of worship.
agni is the festival where the people walk over the red hot burning charcoals.the distance will be 20to 30 ft (might be less) and following the fire pit there was stagnant water.100's of people walked over the fire(agni).i was amazed by just few peoples. the first person who entered into the fire was with pot covered with cocunut and mango leaves.this person was walking over the fire as if he was walking on the road. that was amazing ! few young girls they too were walking!
the men and the women in the middle age were jumping and hoping to reach the water pit.three group of people i found really awesome 1. young unmarried girls. 2. the father's who had their kids over their shoulder and 3.old peoples. these three peoples were just walking over the fire without any hast. when i asked my mom about it,she told those three were sincere in that 18 days fasting/penance. actually those 18 days are to prepare their body and mind to cross the fire pit. there were incidents of minor accidents (mostly middle age peoples) those people failed to focus themselves. brain takes 3 seconds to react to the hot objects but those people took an average of 10 to 15 sec. ????? on the whole day i was thinking about this. the deity is pachai amman ( green mother) and male deity is veeran (a hero). the priest were singing songs with very different strokes with one silambu(made of brass which gives jal jal sound) in their hands. after so many years i literally enjoyed the real festival . in the night i was discussing about the village with my father.

THANK YOU

After completing my masters, i got opportunities in JNU, IDSK and PU. In the month of July i came to our campus and just got mesmerized by our beauty of our campus. I got three signs that i am going to be here. 1) The watch man treated me fairly and he asked me to go to hostel no:1, 2) In the hostel no:1 i got room no:58 ( with the shield attached on the door) i checked the whole wing only my room got that then the open aquarium in the main building. Finally when i saw Prof. Narayanan i confirmed it:) becuase when i went to JNU everywhere torns and very much like desert forest. my intution was pushing me out of the campus.
Sat for MET,question was tough with statistics and little economics i managed by attenting psychology and current affairs questions. Another one miracle that i found was my interview just all the professors are lively and laughing like anything, believe me while came out from the room i thought " is it me?"then with my grand father support i joined in IITB. Though the study,stay and other things was challenging me i managed to stay here becuase some power in our campus protected me (thought of running away and commiting suicide). Thanks to the angels here. They gave me courrage whenever i was asking. All my old philosophies and thoughts about life got shattered here. Its like operation without anesticia.
I found my ANGEL here she will be my future wife, got base for my studies further. Actually sort of enlightenment (in siddhar tradition enlihtenment is not a end point ,its on the way perk) which i received here about life which made me to accept life as it is. My french connection continued here. In the first list couldn't make out then later i received a mail saying that they give preference to second years (i was in waiting list 11) so i could able to attend french class for one year. As Einstein said we can see life in two ways one with everything as miracle and another one with nothing as mirracle. so far i could see from the first point of view.
The IITB alumini association gave me loan for laptop. At first i though this is unnescessary expenditure. later i came to know ,now laptop is as essential as pen and notebook. some where i read "luxurious commodities are becoming essential commodities". Thanks to alumni association. Here i find people know to treat well each other in the working culture. That because of the intelligence level that exist here. we must ameliorate it further. Along with treating well we should learn to help each other. like help your own friends in learning. by teaching we will learn fastly then reading.
I never bother about good and bad people when it comes to prayer. Everyday in my prayer i pray for each and everyone in our campus. Its like for my good and for others welbeing too.
i dont know how to thank our director and other administrators here for the step taken to make IITB as a world class institute. amazing step ,our IITB must become oxford of the east (universities are doing only politics). i thank the angels here. please give oppurtuinites for first genertaion people ,let them see how another world exist. definitely this will not bring down our standard. this will only increase our learning phase. like loyola college does. these first generation students mostly will not be rowdies and easy goers. where as they will absorb our working culture and definitely it will not be a waste because i benifited from our institute a lot. I pray that arutperumjothi andavar will give all support to our director to make our institute as world class institute.

A LETTER TO BROTHER

Dear Brother,
Probably by now u might be knowing me very well. first of all let me show my respect to you. hope all is going well with you. no doubt you are my brother (according to tribal culture :).
the main purpose of writing this letter is to request you to stop abusing her in the public. we are civilized ,particularly whites feels that it's their burden to civilize the rest. if you continue to behave like this then your disproving the white mans burden theory.

it is not that u alone in the world gave up your girl friend or u lost by ur lethargy. (we feel our girls are our assets).me too had done the same ,not many year before just last year. i had a crush over my class mate.purposefully she hided her boyfriend from me. this game went on for 6 months.on the next semester i came to know everything about her ,that was shocking and bit created anger. i took it lightly,however underneath the relationship was alive. one day her boyfriend came to our campus. i met him (she introduced him to me ,girls known for that!) i decided on that dayitself i should completely wipe put every thought and possibilities of getting close with her. this might be a vage narration ,since a girl involved i dont want to write bit elaborately (trust me brother i never touched her unnecessarily ).still today we see each other,we smile we say little hai and we move on.

many things in life time decides. if u understand i can say my girl's fearless is actually a punishment for me. you are just an instrument used for that(our last birth account got settled )
moreover even in any barbarian culture forcing a girl or abusing a girl will be considered as the least human activity.

i had seen comments over me as baby sitter,whore, nigger, gorilla and so many....(only in the last two days i abused you ,that u know the reason. being a boy u gave me the worst punishment to me, which i pray no one should undergo.) BABY SITTER: yes iam a baby sitter to my girl.my father had been a good baby sitter,my grand father had been very good baby sitter and pray i also should be a good baby sitter. i dont undrstand the logic of calling as baby sitter. if me and my girl produce a goods then its our responsibility to bring it out as a complete finished goods. our culture completely allows us and encourage us to be a babysitter. i dont know about your?.then what is our job. only night duty?

WHORE:honestly speaking ,even the present life that iam leading is againt my inner being. i am guy who really aspires less problamatic simple life with fresh air and water. you may not know for guys like me big things are punishment(i have to thank god for my girl who is understanding this).so u may not know how much am afraid. coz i know about this two years before,i even told to my two class mates here. i tried my level best to fit in here.but god wants me to be my girls baby sitter.

VIRGINITY:
no one could have spoke and advocated virginity like me. joe (my canadian friend) knows that very well. recently i came to know that virginity concept is a mirage and moreover it's a geo-cultural concept.like for an indian girl virginity is the concept which gives an invisible strong bond to husband. if an indian girl losing her virginity other than her boyfriend definitely it says that system gets erodes(coz we have to think in such a sysytem if she does mistake then it has soemthing to say).where as it is entierly different in terms of westerners. in your teen age if you dont have boy/girl friend and if you dont go for dating then the society will suspect you and inturn it might even brand you as gay. this is not that case here.you are respected and looked up if you dont roam out unnecessarily.it's more of middle class attitude. i am not justifying the fearless. you have more maturity to come out fast and build another relationship.(may be your society moving fast in this matter).these days i know what is happening in elite insititutions.... in that case my girl is much better .coz she didnt hide anything and she is ready to be honest .what else a guy need. think like this ,we both are marrying a virgin girl what guarentee we have that she might continue to be good ?.... there are many things in life that only time can determine.i would like to ask here , why virginity is only for girls? what about us?

so my brother forget and forgive will be the good policy for this bermuda triangle. i wish u will get a good girl who understands you and accepts you.
sincerely
P.Anbarasan


P.S : i didnt talk and write much about my girl in this letter,since i felt that might hurt you. i dont want to do the mistake you had done.
A FINAL REQUEST PLEASE STOP ABUSING HER.!!!

8+9 = 13

Now i am going to say something very important to understand for the following 60 years(2002-2062).many know about the importance of number 8 and 9 and few might know about 13.its available in the net too. but what i want to say is that 8+9 = 13.many may feel both are both the extremes then how come its possible?actually they are not extremes.let me say it.

THE POWER OF 8
Many are afraid of the number eight and some(astrologers) even go to the extend saying unlucky number because it belongs to the planet Saturn(Sani Bhagavan). in our Tamil tradition we call only three people as Eshwar (almighty) first we call Ganesha as vigneshwar, two Maheshwar Lord Shiva and three Sanieswar (Saturn). because these three people have special power that others normally don't possess.
If sani is inauspicious how he entered into super three? he was wrongly interpreted.
when we say eight or sani we feel problems , loses and so on.Actually speaking number 8 is much related to truth, power, determination,honesty and enormous prosperous. then why we call eight as problematic, the reason is there is another one quality that many may not know about saturn is that it can reveal real face of anyone.Saturn likes good people at the same time he don't like hypocrites ,nowadays most of us are hypocrites that's why we don't get the proper blessings of Saturn.what the Saturn will do is it reveals the hypocrisy very easily. this is because Saturn goes against sun.
Our yogis and siddhars never afraid of Saturn or number 8.for them it is the power center if we properly approach him and request him the benefits will be peak.Saturn will always test our patience once if he get convinced he never calculate and give the benefits (unexpected payments) Saturn teaches what is life is? only Saturn can show the both the side of the coin. that is life with sorrow and blessings.
Here in the north i see people are worshiping hanuman to over come the saturn influence ,this is somewhat wrong notion.(the belief is based on the mythology that sani could not penalize hanuman) actually speaking saturn will not penalize any good people he never kill anyone (only in the third phase) he delays the process of progress that too to train you to protect the materialistic prosperous that are about to receive from him. siddhars understood this factor of saturn and they were really striving to be honest and truthful ,that's how they attain siddhis ,by attaining siddhis they became the friend of time(there is another track in this understanding no need to explain now). on the whole with out purity and truth it is really difficult to get the blessings of saturn.and to be frank we cannot escape from saturn only the punishment will get reduced by our prayer.on the other hand if we are sincere, helpful in nature,ethically conscious i promise you ,we will not get the negative influence of Saturn.

THE POWER OF 9
Nine related to name, fame ,prosperous , luxurious,happiness and so on .you can put all synonyms of happiness. the numbe r9 is very generous and so it may not teach what life is all about we no need to talk much about this number because it is very much considered with luck auspiciousness and progressiveness.

THIRTEEN
Kala bhairava the super power in the bit unpleasent form.he emerged out of anger and comitted sin by beheading brahma because of that he roamed all over the world with begging bowl and the sin followed him in the form of a lady. this is a small intro of kala bhairava.he is the lord of time factor.
Now lets see how 8+9 fit into 13. kalabhairava in appearance black(8) at same time he was charming(9) wherever he went he attracted the other girls and rishis wife's again that turned into a problem to him.though KB is the form of Shiva(9) he committed murder by chopping one of the head of Brahma(8).he is the perfect explanation of life and time .Coz he contains the both the powers to create and to destroy.when the intelligence reached to the level of arrogance Kala bhairava emerged to say that there exist the power beyond intelligence.
the power of 9 made him to say about the existence of super power over the intelligence,but the way he said was influenced by 8.(choping the head).
from above we can understand kala bhairava has two power together, that's why he is called as the lord of time. if we see we have everything in two ,day and night ,good and bad ,positive and negative, divine and evil and so on .these two forces can operate in their own time period and in own sphere of influence ,say night starts after seven ,evil flourishes in the ugly heart and vice-versa , but kala bhairava is the embodiment of both and that made him to be the lord of time factor(the dualness). Learning from Kala bhairava will be painful .for instance he is teaching you the life aspects say important aspects(9) but he teaches you by making you to undergo pains (8).Any how the out put and the result will be positive but the process underwent would be painful.

Finally it is very easy to please kalabhairava than any other god .kalabhairava will be highly pleased if we are simple and honest.
when we don't have anything, we have nothing to lose.

God and Studies

we must perform our duty ,which we are entitled to do. For a student learning is his duty .So he must perform it properly.Tamil proverb says "you cant get mangoes and coconut out of mantras".so education is first in preference.
Nobody could explain perfectly the importance of education as Dr. B.R.Ambedkar did. Education is the only means to come up in life.education will break out bondage.and Education will free us from social evils.
so studies are first. Then what this religion and ethics will do to us?
By being religious person you are actually need not to go away from regular routine of studies and our assignments.The secret behind the religion and ethics are as follows.
you can be an intelligent, excellent mathematician but you may be seems to be bare tree.

For every individual there exist golden period ,say that can last from 3 months to 30 years depend upon their astral configuration,many of us may not know this arrival; or occurrence of golden period in our life.So we may loose those good opportunities ,where the transition actually take place.Here comes the importance of being religious and ethically conscious .These two characters will definitely point you or give signal to you about your good periods. if you are not ethically conscious or god fearing,then there is a possibility of loosing it.

so, doing our work and going to temple is the right way of worship. some may feel sorry for us, for the reason that we are becoming more humane in nature.They need not to worry. Because Every one of us knows that academics is first.Sitting in room watching p**** and gossiping, is it the good way of living ? let them come out of their room walk in the fresh air which our campus is abundantly blessed with. we have 24 hours a day if we properly chart out our schedule ,we will come to know about our fake busy.

spending 2 hours in 24 hours over the duties which we like (+ve) to do, definitely will not be a waste ,in fact it will give power to remain active and focused for the remaining 22 hours. so studies and belief must be two equal wheels of a cart.
we must always remember without ethics, what ever be the quantity of knowledge .It may get waste like adding a few drops of venom in the pot of milk. Ethics and knowledge will go like milk and honey.

LETS BRUSH UP THE BASIC

1)What is a Mistake ?
Anything that makes you to feel guilty can be called as mistake.
2)what is Meditation?
Oh boy! when you feel happy and joy for no reason and and when you realize all your cells are smiling then that is called meditation.
3)What is a Religion?
Religion is one which makes you to be a good fellow human with others and with nature.
4)Who is a Good Girl?
Who does not propagate free sex and one who does not break the natures law.(girls pls keep up distance from other girls who propagate free sex,that might be a plot to abuse you).
5)Who is Good Boy?
One who does not play with the physical and emotional feelings of the girl .Because girls are like well water,they don't easily get disturbed ,once they get disturb ,they don't easily get settle.but we guys are not like that ,so good boy is the one who sees that he is not disturbing them un necessarily.
6)Definition of Prayer?
Prayer has nothing to do with mantras and chantings and rituals.prayer is a mode of communication to the super natural power in which you believe.since we believe ,it will be answered.
7)Who Curse Others?
Those who feel that their life is full of curse and miseries such persons normally curse others.swami Vivekananda told"look at Buddha words ,his words are full of bliss ,he never cursed others".
8)Who is a Good Teacher?
The value of the good teacher increases when they lift their student to greater heights.this can be applicable to spiritul teachers too.Thats why they are called ladder.
9)Bad Teacher?
Bad teacher is one who shows their personal frustrations over students.
10)What is Body?
Our body is temple ,we must keep it neat and clean .we must always remember that our body is not a septic tank or guddon. so we must know to keep it clean by not dumping too much of wastes.