How We Can Win In Transition

The winning strategy is simple, instead of knowing your strength, first know your enemy and his/her strength and weakness. Every planet has its own strength and weakness. And among those planets Saturn, rahu and kethu are paava kiraanal(sin oriented planet). They are the judge and the jailer. So it was strictly said to me not to touch women and particularly virgins. Everyone abused me when they saw my birth chart about my character (suppose to say like that only) so I was worried and scared. 27 was the worst time in my life, can’t eat in time, can’t drink what I want, and can’t stay where I am comfortable. Had A mixed feel of pain and frustration. Daringly crossed the road, least bothered about life and happiness and I was Inviting death. For each and everything need to run between the pillars. Often I slept while travelling. Only for countable days where I slept in peace. (tata veedu). 29 came, jenna entered. She got corrupted by money because of Hollywood star so she abused me by pinching me often. Iam supposed to meet my angel in 10 months. But it’s delayed to 1.5 years. In this year she was enjoying power, money, attention and status. The reason behind is she is continue to abuse me. (Actually she lost in kethu transtition ) because in this time one suppose not to enjoy those stuffs. So Saturn needs a reason to hit her. We know great empires came to an end in Indian soil. Her arrogance went to extreme when she decided to scape me and my girl. Blessed are always blessed. Here comes the pain and the lesson.
Often found the black shadow hiding near me. Couldn’t able to sleep properly. She took my old files and smoked my brother to apply dirt to our family. And few months were the worst part of my life. Though my girl is helping me but she was blackmailed to pluck the rose from her hand. We were arrested by jenna. She continues to smoke in Whouse telling that she could bring light there. Finally by vallalar grace she was knocked out. Amazed by angel play. Then the second level was taken to mohini land. It was the Worst and horrible experience. Me, amit and sumant went for outing and returned to room. Similarly There in US, my guardian angel was smoked to send with head. He was fabulously offering deal to my guardian angel. She was smoked and confused, as always she came out by using the veto card and slept that night just to come out from the deal and smoke. Here same night in hotel from 10:00 pm to 2:00 pm someone trying to enter into my body. I got a feel of raping and pain of not answering the sexual need. It was worst and horrible. Exactly at 2:00 pm I saw a small white creature fall under my feet and went away. Then I saw my face in mirror and never saw such a kind of my face. Red eyes, bulged cheek distracted hair and blown away head. Actually I never touched my head. This was the experience. After that I was alright and went to guruvayoor.
Then the work was given to male in mohini land. He played dirty and hard. This is called yeeval (sending someone). This person identified my protecting gate and tried to blown them. Thanks to my guardian angel I was sent there at night 11:00 pm to watch the gate. Then found big white images following and scaring me many times I was only laughing though mildly scared about my few pressing sins. One night I saw someone bringing nail to my head ,when I opened my eyes it was vanished. Yesterday was the climax and the lesson starts here. I was strictly told not to touch a women and virgin. Though my mother protected me (whenever she goes to market she lock the garden side fence and front side fence) similarly my randfather follows every of my activites like to whom iam talking and where iam going. Smetimes it was irritating and humiliating. We know the reason. But still I tried with few but nothing happened. This yeeval usally done with the spirits of horror death. The dead person in our and their relative circle whose soul is roaming here before going to judgement. Theses souls usually will be the soul committed suicide , died in accident and poison case. These dead souls are not allowed for judgment until their given time is over on earth ( the given period is 60 but u committed suicide in 30 then ur asked stay till 60) only few cases where they are ought to end by fire or poison who has a purpose will be taken for judgment. Since I haven’t touched any women or girl from outside the boundary. This yeeval was done by using my own relative spirits. This person from mohini land tried with everyone like pallan, uncle who died with sabarimala woes and another one uncle. Everyone said no for the known reason. My second grandfather a drunkard and constant trouble giver for my grandfather and his family, was pushed towards me because some reasons like my uncle felt relieved and no one cried except my mom. My second grandfather loves his wife, she alone cried for a year every evening, by abusing every one. So this person (mohini) used this card of wife love and others feel of relief. Though he likes me a lot. He was pushed by above factors. Everyone knows my closeness with my grandfather. Yesterday While I was sleeping I found a dog bites my amulet, I was shocked and stunned, suddenly I spoke by saying take this shit also, this dog dropped the amulet ate that. I didn’t let it down, I catched it.(Know your dog :)) usually alarm will not ring if the known person come to home. That is dog will not bark if it see the known person.
I hope the lesson is vivid now. You lose in transition if you burnt your finger in hot pie or smking hard nicotine. Kethu known for mysticism, tantric and superhuman activities. He is the pen karagan(attached with women) and gana karagan(searching for wisdom) for both he use the women. In this circumstance if I touched a virgin or others wife then it might have been easy for that mohini person to do yeeval by choosing the dead spirit from their family or community to destroy. Yesterday it seems he closed the magic show. Learning from kalabhairava is painful but outcome is always positive. we can overcome our fate by right mindfulness- tamil proverb.

Time Meet the Two Worlds

It was a dream before deepawali in nov 2011. I was going to an old city and the bus and bus ticket was new to me the bus was climbing a slope and there were big walls, I was very happy after getting down and went to the place which was a urinated place and there I found a women lying in the old temple corridor and she was still like statue before her I found an un painted tarnished vallalar statue. The lady who lied in the temple corridor had half python body and it was slowly moving. Everyone was just seeing but not attending her. I saw lot of wooden blocks kept on the corners of the compound wall. I was highly moved by the cemented women with hip and below part as python and Its moving scene. This was the worst dream I ever had……….
A man(X) from the well settled family marrying to a girl and the man(X) felt he was cheated by his father because the girl was not of his expectation furthermore the man was insulted by his father because of his rational thinking and logic reasoning in everything. But the girl truly loved him. Hence the personal insult and the cheating business in marriage made the man (X) to move away from his home and home town to down south. The newly married wife of X was abused by the family members and misused by the old man (X father) . The man x who was good looking and intelligent engaged in export business and had a good rapport with foreigners and other business communities in the French colony. His compassion attitude and kind heartedness attracted the poor and needy to him. His frustration and longingness in personal life made him to eat everywhere and every variety.
The rich and compassionate x man developed a fort for him and his dependents and he taken care of their needs. A great sage of india in French colony was one his contemporaries. This attitude of compassion and frustration in personal life made him to give harsh punishments to the unfaithful bedmates and business people. Shiva shattered shakthi’s body in pieces and dissolved in nearby ocean. The X man wife’s love towards him was real and she was longing for him. The man in down south also not happy about his personal life, except helping others. Here the betrayer was the old man who used x wife for his personal thirst. The X in south, developed as a DON and invincible, a couple from America came to port city regarding business and the x man and American wife swiftly had relation but in turn her husband was cheating in x man’s business and the American couple went with that money. The person who was tried to poison X food on birthday was a loyal friend of X. however he was turned to as betrayer was later butchered. Now that man in women is studying in best institution in Delhi.
The person who tried to take over the x man’s position was continuously supplying dope and girls is now he himself is a dope and manipulates stories to news paper. The shattered shakthi’s bodies took form as shakthis and the sin is following. Most of the men took the women form because just to follow as a sin and most of the x man’s miraculous escapes are in the water body and near the water body. One of x man childhood friend is in the best place of financial capital often wears black sportswear and goes from 10 to ground with tennis bat. So good and bad was identified everywhere. Finally the x and his wife died out of heart attack. The good part was in the judgment day both x and his wife decided to marry again. So the stars of x have to take a bizarre constellation. This is due to x mans compassion, butchering and the love of his wife. This could be supported by a small incident, the x mans fist threat came as a chicken pox (red rashes ) over the body and his color got much darker on the same year the x man’s wife was born in north. The x child man was escaped at his 5th age.
When the intelligence lead to the level of arrogance kalabhairava emerge. My second uncle told one tamil folk story about kalabhairava. Both brahma and shiva had five head and look same. Brahma used to eat from shakthi when shiva sked about this to shakthi, regarding brahma eating in his home, shakthi told both have five head so I couldn’t able to identify who is Shiva and brahma (probably Brahma ate in the night) then shiva got angry and chopped Brahmans one head and made him to stay with four head. Probably shiva s colour changed because of that incident. Shiva went against the Brahma. That’s why saviors of human kind come in black color or from the lower strata of society. Jesus went against the Jews, prophet Mohamed took their separately to new heights, Krishna as a charioteer, karnan had the name of low birth and denied social respect. The flute in Krishna is a resemblance of sad meleody of personal life though enjoyed. Gurunanak was the poor farmer who cultivation his land. Buddha’s birth is explained as white elephant entering into his mom’s womb (white elephant 50/50. Later part of history is another big chapter. So Brahman wills continue to enjoy society status and also continue to lose his heads to the black force. The Brahman losing head is merely of his activities. The arrogant attitude of the old man spoiled a good life two people because the women was good in character and loyal to husband but the old man abused and misused her. One family incident might be the sample for the community degradation. So both the victims are sent as warriors to head the opponent team. Because as per the law of conservation, nature itself protect its subjects and conserve itself. So nature chooses someone who is nature friendly and strong. The climax could be losing the head. There are no accidents. (My favorite movie dialogue)

Zen Attitude

They say attitude is everything, some say attitude is altitude, how much height it your attitude that much height is your life goes. Thiruvalluvar says “ vellathanaiya malar neitam manthar tham ullathanayathu uyarvu” the meaning, is how much the water level increase also the lotus blooms over the water similalrly the height of the life depend on our height of heart. So what is zen attitude? It’s nothing but a good attitude :)to talk in surface term. Actually zen attitude is having deep route in bodhidharman teachings. His attitude became the base for zen attitude.
Zen Attitude.
A Buddhist monk was in his monastery, there was an intolerable winter. The monk suddenly took the wooden statue of Buddha broken it and put it in fire pit, disciples was shocked, the monk reply was I want the inner Buddha to be alive. This is Zen Attitude. This is nothing but inner search, inner learning and inner peace. Bodhi Dharman often spoke about the cause and conditions. Buddha spoke about the cause and the effect. The difference is what is applicable in his home land might not be applicable in Chinese land but the silence and meditation is applicable universally. This is what BohiDharman told. This silence and meditation has no religious, language, sex and territory barriers. That’s why Zen Buddhism could able to spread much faster and wider than original Buddhism. So Zen attitude is nothing but commonsense attitude applying a simple formula called cause and conditions.
Why I am like this? Because you are in this environment and the condition is, you are not ready to change. So you are like this. How can I change? Search for the causes of change and why (condition) you want to change? Then change comes easily. This is what Zen attitude. In Zen attitude everything is mind related. A god could appear in flame and also in statue but in Zen a god could appear in you :) but how can u see that god? This is where Zen attitude comes. When u Sit silently slowly separate u and inner being then u can see the god in your inner being. So in Zen what u see in you need not to be god but something that make u calm. Once you are calm u could able to think well, perform well and progress well. So attitude arises from mind and from mind arise thoughts and from thoughts arises the actions. So Zen attitude is Zen action.
The action must depend on cause and effect from Buddha point of view but action could depend on the cause and conditions from Bodhi Dharman point of view. In both of their views cause is same but bodhi Dharman told about condition. A man sleeps in platform (effect) because he lost his home in flood (cause). A man sleeps in the platform (effect) because this place is warm and safe (condition) . He could have stayed in neighbor village but why he came to sleep here (this is condition). This explains the zen attitude of seeing things. A Zen attitude for policy makers will be soon he must be given n with brick houses in his village itself.:)

Poverty and Consumption Pattern a Common Man Understanding

let us keep aside what the poverty definition and experts measures of calorie intake to measure poverty. because the value of the money changes so one dollar a day story may not work now ,similalry the calorie intake of whm we are talking? a policy maker in the ac room or an expert from the elites institutuion? because in my opinion both are wrong in terms of measuring and giving a scale for calorie intake for poor. have you ever seen a poor eating? do u knw the amount of food they eat? and why they take such an amount of food? knwing answers for thsese questions will solve our calorie intake problem. 1) poor people eat trice the amount of an average people eat in quantity. if we take two laddle of rice ,then they take 6 laddle of rice. 2)they are eating like this because they involve in manual labours. so how come the one dollar story and average intake of calorie will help to measure the poverty.?
A VILLAGE
in a village people never buy vegetables in kilograms, they buy for few rupees. this is how they buy, onion for two rupees, tomato for two rupees and ginger and chilli (either one) for one rupee. untill recently this was the scene ,nowthere are two merchant communities established a shop and they start to distribute polythene bags and denied one rupee and two rupee business. interesting part is when onion went for rupees 40, the person who sold for fe rupees had the onion, but the merchant cmmunity shop wasnt had. when i asked the person who sell for fe rupees, he told poor people cant understand so now iam spending few of my hundreads to get for them. this philanthropic attitute remains inthe whole supply chain of the earleir one who sell for fe rupees. they earned profit when they got and shared the loss, now where the question f inflation and unavailability came here? it is always the problem with econmist who poison the people and government solely on the basis of profit and profit maximisation. these people are contributing to the inflation rate because they are keeping the profit percentage in uncomprmise level and pushing the people to buy for the available price. the funny part is these same people write articles and books on pverty alleviation.

IN TOWN:

in town we have a regulated market, where the fresh greens and vegetables available for the reasnable cost, becasue the surrounding villaeges rely on these merchants. if we go with 100rs to market we can buy three vegetables and greens. but spending everyday 100 is bit tough for majority of the people.so here also peple have difficulties in consumption, because of the income difference and the unavailability of the maternal attitutde in businesss.

IN CITY

full of shopping malls with centralised ac, the vegetables and fruits cost the rate of my pants and shirts. perfectly coverd and keeps under refrigiration. so it is wide clear that common man cannot enter in. the market in city is equally costly as compare to shpping malls.

DOUBTS

now who is deciding this three types of distribution of same commodity to same people.? how can we allow the prfit minded business peple to sell the vegetables and other eatables. an apple cost 160rs, a papaya cost 60rs and pineapple cost 60rs. compare your dollar story here.

A NEEDS OF A POOR.

a poor needs minimum of 3 laddle(anna karandi) of rice, a cup of dhal, with one veetable and one greens . if any individual who get these then he is living a decent standard of living. instead u give them 40rs and ur market econmy hikes the eatable commodity prices and data says 55% of peple have now 40rs, so we donthave poverty. isit right? i found ecnomist manipulate their research to make their work more valid. there is a game of number cheating is going on. the poor live in the three places and their income has to differ according to their residing place. 40 rs generalisation will not work. here in our capital the people doing begging as a hobby, these kids play on the road side and when the traffic signal is made these kids running near to cars for begging. it seems they are doin this as a vluntary activities. these peple are the slags of the urbanisation and modernisatin. if modernisatin removes poverty,then why these people staying under the bridge and often sleeping in pen space.?

the gvernment must make the public disrtibutive system more effective. for that the administrative system must be effective. call the youth volunteers of every district and distribute the stored grains, atleast let them eat as raw weat and rice. we need to distribute the stored grains instead of allowing it to decay. call the develpment officers and ask them to distribute the grains with proper maintained records. the state intervention is a must because econmic exploitation might take place now because of econmic growth.

it is rare to get human birth,

it is more rare to get birth without physical challenges...

it is horror that povery exist

it is much horror that experiencing poverty in youthhood.... (ouvaiyaar- sangam literature)

K.S Pallan : lost in societial transition

a man with blend nose, tall, uncombed hair, despite drunkard, he had a smiling face. he scolds the upper caste people in the mask of drunkard those who are walking on the road. he had not afraid of anyone becuase he had nothing to lose for a while. he always says "k.s pallan" his original name was k. subramaniyan. pallan is his nick name. he scolds every one those who have money and wealth. if he is not drunkard he used to talk very mildly with a shy smile such things we can find only in the morning time. he has some 10 children i think among them one got into govt iti (industrial trainning institute) but he left and came back to village. he shared very sadly with me that. one good thing is that he never rise(shouting) his voice with me even if he is drunkard.

recently his younger son got a BE seat in chennai college, he and his brothers hired an auto and they were announcing this allover the surrounding villages :). he also went to college and suddenly he was so clean and he used to wash his sandals and wear. i was maintaining a distance because once he asked me as"i heared that u had only BA history" i told him yes, and congragulated him and told him to go further. then i asked about his 12th group, because iam sure he cant get marks for BE for first group. he replied that he done EMR(electric motor rewinding ) solely an vocational group. and he left that bananyan tree immediately. i never shared with anyone that he got BE seat from EMR group (400 marks for practical). becuase people might say i am talking out of envy.

every weekend i used to see him sitting infront of his house and whenever i pass from the field to home ,he gives a smile just rising his butt. recently while i was under the banyan tree(nobody was there to talk). there i found ks pallan walking with unusual look, not drunkard, mildly spoken. i asked him "from where he is coming?" his reply gave a gerk for me, he went for rural employment scheme(NREGA). and at 2:pm he returned back form the job and he had the same look, i was very much disturbed by that. he just smiled towards and he went. after few days i came to delhi and my mom phoned and told pallan commited suicide by hanging himself.

i couldnt able to digest that when i was asking for the reason my mom told, some adultry problem in the home. i know his wife she is good,dirty and hard working. then i started to think of the possibilities. when i went to my grand pa's home because of medical problem ,my analysis got correlated when i discussed the issue with my friends there. he couldnt able to perform his role as a good father in the society by providing money for his BE son. this be guy (kanagaraj) every week end he used to come home. say for up and down bus charges 200 rs and 100 rs pocket money + he might have some stationary needs (200rs).so total 500rs. their family is not in the position to take immediately 500 rs in a week. a village with 60 family heads has less source for money. so naturaaly those who go out for lorry trips (loading purposes) come with such amount of money. she started to have illagal contact with such one guy.

the painful part is that he himself saw that once and he walked straightaway into the forest and hanged himself with his dothi. his son got BE, he has got needs and obiviously he likes to wear a decent slipper in chennai. here whom we have to blame. this person (pallan) never went for work and he never bothered for other stuffs, all of a sudden he was forced to do new thinks such as saving the money and earning the money. his life shifted from individual centric to money centric. even though he tried he couldnt fulfil his roel as a family head that forced his wife to take up a easy source of money. which ultimately killed him. he used to have only one lankod(used to hide only the genetal organ) and he blocks the upper caste people two wheelers and used to scold them in name of praising. his voice i still remeber... .

SABAI ENADHULLAM -VALLALAR

vadalur sabai have two important concepts 1) food for the stomach 2) food for thought. the food for stomach is served in dharmasalai which still successfully going on mainly by the villagers surroundings and few noble souls cntributions. during the season time the sadhus in sabai will in bullack carts to collect firewoods, so far as i observed people atleast put few firewoods into the cart. and the cart never went empty. thats why vallalar calls the contributors as the "salai sambanthi" means equal to exchange of bridegrooms. he gives such a intimacy to the contributors of dharmasalai. without any grandness villagers just put sacks of rice into the "thombai" (grain storage made of woods) they get sacred ash from the accountant and they leave the place with prayers. once kamal hassan told in villages there are many enlightened souls roaming but we are not noticing them. they is absolutely true in terms of sabai. just a man in 50's with a simple white dhoti sung a song "oh my god that was not only soul strring but very dept in meanins". thats why this is my favourite place in earth.

u can find the corridor here. it has got important place in my prayer. during my stay in home state every monthly poosam i used to attend. very painful period i underwent so my prayer towards vallalar was" ayya i dont believe in my parents neither my relatives and i cant take refugee anywhere as a failed boy, so if anything goes wrong as shame i will simply come with polydol(pesticide) drink here and i will sleep in your corridor":) that was my true prayer.

no mathras , no coconut, no offerings. prayers are mainly through telepathy.

one amma used to sing before opening the door ... vallalae kadavai thira

here when they open we could sense the smell of holy ash.

here sandal smel

when periyar( E.V Ramasamy nayakar) came to sabai, he never entered into the sabai, he stood out and gazed at the doors. when he was asked to come in , he pointed the above phrase which says" those who left killing even in eating(non-veg) can enter" he told " i eat non veg."

this oven was lit by vallalar himself it cntinues withut any putoff. everyday after finishing cooking they put few firewoods into the oven and it maintains the fire, next day they start cook with the same fire.

the flag for sanmarga community . yellow and white

vallalar never passed out from any world class intitutions :) the whole temple planning was done by vallalar himself. it is an octognal structre and it resembles the head part. the two sabai (silver colour and golden colour) resembles two eyes and the holy light is in puruva mathi(centre of the forehead).
NO EATBLE SHOPS ,NO AMUSEMENT PARKS NEARBY BUT STILL WE CAN FEEL SOMETHING WHEN WE ROAM AROUND THE CAMPUS.

arutperum jothi

taniperum karunai.

TIBET AUTONOMY : FACTS & A THREE TIER MODEL

tibet and dalailama was introduced to me by a tibetan friends tsering tenzing and jigme. tsering had his rosary tied in his hand and made me ask questions about tibet and his holiness. my understanding became wider when i read a book "awekening the mind and lightening the heart " by his holiness. so i started to follow news about tibet. which gave me some understanding about tibet. the tibetan youths that i found in 2003 and 2011 has drastic change in their behaviour and dressings. jeans is the very common dress for both boys and girls(probably foreign funding). whatever it is, a man living in foreign land for his whole life with everyday expectation of dawn is something ponderable.
HARD FACT TIBET HAS TO UNDERTSAND:

1) china is emerging as an invincible power in internatinal platform, though its not playing direct role. china is the major financial supporter of america.

2) so america hands are tied when it deals with chinese affairs.

3)china's third world policies are so strong that makes china to be even stronger in UN.

4)india can only give motherly affection to tibet but only china can give fatherly concession to china.

5) tibet has to follow the policy of "meet the lion in its den" towards china. because most of the west trying to have share with chinese econmic boom. so without any third person ,tibet has to intiate conversations with china.

6)since tibet became strategically and natural resources point of view became important for china, we cant expect complete expulsion of china from tibet.

7)through out the history china suffers with "xenophobia" so avoid using foreiners as a leaverage for talk, definitely that will irritate them, now they are super power too.

8)any political conclusion must be arrived soon within the life tenure of hisholiness

9)change the slogan of free tibet to tibet autonomy

10) tibetans should put their own views instead of someone's else.

WHAT IS LACKING?

too much of foreign funds and foreign aids made the youths blend, they seem to be least reactive when we talk abut tibet. may be because of their religion and culture too, they are not soo reactive. so the burden for hishliness is doubled.

THREE TIER MODEL: HIS HOLINESS , CHINA and the PRIME MINISTER OF TIBET

seperating the state and church is good but completely vanishing of his hliness image in the politics will bring down the morale of tibetans. because his holiness is the religious and cultural sign of tibet. so his mere presence is important. we should not see china as a thorn in the flesh instead see him as a strict brother. in the coming future the role of prime minister will be inevitable. so what tibet can ask to china is that,

his holiness will continue to be an ornamental head of the state (autonmus state). the political and the security issues will be with the china whereas the china will not have any direct presence in tibet but in lasha administrative wing there coould be the chinese representative who will monitor the prime minister activites. the chinese repsentative will not have any cntrol over the spiritual and cultural affairs of tibet.

no changes in tibetan political administration could bring withut the knwledge of UNO and india.becuase the succeding politico of china might try to reverse the history. tibet has to accept the chinese soverignity over tibet.
so basically it is of sharing of powers. the spiritual and cultural affairs will be with the dalailama,

the political and security power might exist with china but invisibly. tibet could accept the socialist form of administration but the prime minister of tibet will be governing the state.
if china and tibet accepts in these views then autonomy will be achieved in win-win situation.

RUE SUFFREN

me, pondicherry, french, alliance francaise, mother ashram, vinayagar temple and bsnl office :), this was the usual milestone i could see after 4:30pm during my stay in pondicherry. i enroled in alliance francaise to study french. first day of french class i couldnt able to attend becuase of gandhian seminare in the department. so i missed the ice breaking session in the french class. on the secnd day i went to class. days were moving, i never bther abut what others are thinking abt me, i just stay in the comfortable position. so i was least bother abut who is sitting where.

one day prof asked the students to ask questions to other stdents who we like. along with me a student from PEC(pondicherry engineering college) basically from arunachal pradesh, he was super cute. so when my turn came, i raised my head and opp to me a girl was sitting her name was christi ,so suddenly i asked her the question abt the pet dog. the class was silent, i dntknow why. then the turn was moving and prf called a girl swt it's ur turn. first time i saw that girl.

wow, not that poisnus beautiful but hmely round face with two jadai(spliting the hair into two and tieing). she turned towards us. me and that pec guy. and she asked question to that pec guy :). i dont know what and what went,i suddenly bowed my head down and took more than a minute to cme again, i was unaware whether others watched me or not. this pec guy was so happy and he was chatting all along in the bus till his college, but i was thinking abt what actually went wrong with me... horrible

weekend passed and on mnday we had film screening. everyone was waiting on the corridor, since i was ging from university usually i reach AF(alliance francaise) by 5:30 or 5:45 pm. that day also i went at 5:30 and on the corner i was gazing at the mango tree. suddenly a thought came to see where she's standing. when i turned my body and head to my surprise she was standing behind me. when i saw her, she was turning her head aside,then with hesitation,i said hai, she also said hai. thats it. we went for movie screening. on that day pec guy was not talking much.he also changed the place. but what a perfect girl she was. probably migrant telugu settled in tamilnadu. becuase she called her dad as naina.

days were moving we reached to the level of sitting next to each other( that is the big thing in our society) for six month i never had french book, i took notes in the note and shared her book. every level we had break of one month. after finishing the exams i ask the last question to her will u cme to next level? she used say ,i dont know i have to ask my father. untill i see her in the class my pulse rate goes till 110 :). i think it was third level she was not in the class. when i stood out. didero (very decent guy) told me" monseiur she is in the next class 6th room" i dnt know how to react to him so i smiled. interesting fact about her was she was becoming more and more beautiful and i could able see good external changes in her body.

the sad part was on the summer. with great fight and difficulties she joined in the summer.her father started to suspect and they got disturbed abut our relatinship. one day when she came from school i spoke to her. suddenly she asked me "why ur coming with me?" she never asked like that. but she didnt spoke anything again. i was also walking silently with her, suddenly from a shed three people approaching toards us, i coldnt able to understand anything. the lady who came took her and the man asked me "hey what u want ,who are u ,come lets go to police station" then i understood. i am trapped. those two were her parents and another one was to threaten me(gunda like :) . thousands of thouhts running in my mind. particularly what will be my parents reactions, how culd i call him. she was seeing me as helpless. i understood the meaning of her earlier pharse, she was trying to send me in the half way.

when we reached near to plice station, this gunda like person told ther father, that he look like good guy and also a student so we will slve this problem, he was a native pondicherrian. then they took me too two wheeler shed and her father was jumping up and down. the third person was contrling him, i stood silently. then this gunda like persn entered talking, he told if this continues i will smash u r face( moonchi kozhapicum). then i got angry, i tld them if u dare enough do it now. "let see what is happening. frm the first u both are treating me like a culprit. what u want to do ,u can do now",her father took two step back. arguments was btwn me and other. in the aruments nowhere i took her in, because to that extend she impressed me. finally i accepted it was my mistake to walk with ur daughter on the road. and her father got my email id, phone number, my home address and hstel address. everything was over by 6:15pm started started aroud 5:15pm.

what i admire about her is she was dare enough to love me irrespective of all thse prblems in that small age. then my astrlogical cnfiurations doesnt support at all for love at that time. but still she shwn me what is true love. thats the power of virginity. see, if sun is good position, u can kiss ur lover in the corner of bathroom, or there might be power cut where u both sitting. sun is known for hidden pleasures. but i was in the punishment period, where the star was aiting to punish me. there also she shared my pain. thats her greatness, loving in the difficult time and in difficult situations. cute brillaint girl must be in good collage some where. best part was we never touched each other thats wwhy we culd able to escape frm the bad situation, actually she helped me to overcome that horrible time.

getting a place in anyone's heart is not easy

dharamshala-macleon ganj